For a long time I have wanted to be a fashion designer. I'm afraid that I might not be successful both financially and spiritually. Sometimes I feel like I don't have the abilities to make it. Have I chose the correct career path? Please give me some advice.

Too much negativity and too much passiveness. It's a tough career choice for you. You appear to answer yourself. Is this the right career choice? You got to have balls and a thick skin, I don't see it Well I mean on one hand you got it, you got the power! And on the other hand I keep seeing interference. Accidental sort of like your all set up for the party and then you forget to invite the people or you invite the people and you forget to set up for the party. Or just didn't feel like it or love life puts its foot down or you wanted to sleep in.
You have some grand and glorious ideas but... I think you will start in this direction but you will branch off into something along the same lines. And then you branch off onto something completely different. But its like you need some fire under your butt or something. Its like someone needs to yell to you WAKE UP!
One area of expertise is not enough for you. You will find your lifes work coming from 2, 3, different entities, different avenues that stem from your 1st idea of fashion. I feel in the long run you will find fashion industry to fickle for your tastes. You tend to run deep. Got more important things to direct your energy to. Important! Peace ranieri

Thank you for the wake up call! You described exactly how I'm feeling. I think my financial and living situation is holding me back. I have been depressed for months since I moved to LA. I haven't been able to enjoy being here because money is really tight. My debt has completely taken over my life. I feel like I'm really not myself anymore. I don't even eat like I used to so of course I have little or no energy during the day. When I was at home I loved to take on new fashion projects and I actually used to get chills. I don't know if I should move back home or stay here. I really don't want to give up and move back home. Do you foresee any financial changes?

Stop fighting the flow. All of your questions are popping up for a reason. 1st I do not feel as if you should leave the country. God moves you where you are needed most. Period. STOP fighting with girlfriend. Period. How do you concentrate on lifes issues and what you need to do with that going on. It is not vital to your life or hers. You both are terrible sensitive and should not be referring to each other the way you are.
Destruction and anger ony begat more anger and destruction Stupid is as stupid does and its stupid petty arguments blown up into nuclear bomb. Really you both can find better things to do. You are both healers and are here to help the world not just your selfish selves to hurting each other over what you think the other is or isn't gigving. You have a bigger picture to worry about.
When you are looking down below the horizon you see only yourself and your problems. Selfish and depressing. When you are looking straight out at horizon level your concerns are other people and when you focus your attention above the horizon your are looking up at the sky on horizon level or higher your focus is more holy, on God and what he wants you to do with your life.
You both have had rough lives. You both have been hurt in the past bad, not by lovers but from parents that were not there for you the way they should have been growing up. It sucks but this is where both your hostilities lay. And so instead of growng up and moving on you both are stuck in trying to rid yourselves of this hurt and take it out oneache other. When what you really have is unfinished business with your parents. The things you couldn't say to your parent growing up and even now, you say to each other or take out on each other. I got news for both of you. You can beat each other to death with your words about the past and your past hurts and it is not going to make ANYTHING better. Except to perpetuate more hurt and anger. It will not make mommy and daddy come back to you so they will make it all right, period. You are both asking each other for things that you yourself shoul be taking care of yourself and that is why you are so pissed off. You each expect the each other to give you or do for you what you should be doing for yourselves and that is all. Take responsibility for you 1st. You are mad at yourself for taking the backseat in your own life it is not her fault where you sit in life right now. And vice versa. You are soulmates you 2 are trying to put fire under each other to get up and get going already. NOT to pick on each other and make a tough situation worse. The energy is to be out in your lifes direction and others around you,
Not hating each other.
Sooo just go back and take all that anger back and stop whipping it at her all the time. You both are being selfish like that. Have you seen the movie with Jim Carey? Bruce Almighty? BE THE MIRACLE! If you haven't then go see it, rent it , buy it. If you saw it once watch it again! And get it!
Your career well, its not going to happen. You haven't liked you for sometime now. You asked for these changes that are now approaching. You asked for them and they are detrimental to who you are and who you will be.
Read my posts! Healers have to have all experience so they can help others. OTHERS! Healers lives are usually in more trouble than the very people they help because the focus is to help others evolve. In turn this helps you evolve. This has been your energy many lifetimes now on this planet!! YOu didn't need the mother/father energy to make it all right for youthis life time. That has been worked out eons ago, you are an old soul who promised God you would be always of his service. Instead of being an angel in heaven and helping . YOU CHOSE to come back to earth over and over again, you wanted to be hands on in helping others with there lifes situations. Its got nothing to do with fashion or girlfriend. You do not need the energy of a female to make it all right for you this lifetime. THat too was worked out eons ago, many lifetimes ago. You 2 are here to balance one another, to help the other remember what it is you are here to do. She is doing and has the same duty in her life also.
You both have done this many lifetimes, you promise on the other side to move forward, help each other not to be selfish and to look up at the people that really need helping! Your past 2 lifetimes all you 2 have done is accomplish nothing. Fight with each other like brother and sisiter. If it seems you are tired of doing this, you really are,you should be you've been doing it for centuries now!
Before you came to earth this time you both promised each other and God that this lifetime, THIS LIFETIME you would get your sh together!! Stop fighting each other and HELP OTHERS!! So get on it, you are both upset because you are way behind schedule. And so all the changes. You cling to each other out of fear. Let go, tale her claws out of your arms and take your claws out of hers. Take 5 giant steps backwards and just breathe. It might feel like you are breaking up but that's OK. Let go of all the past hurts, let go of the high demands your egos place on each other. And it is all EGO driven, your whole life has been what you feel others expect of you. Not your real gut about what you want.
More in a minute! Peace ranieri

You need to make it all right for yourself 1st. OK with your past, I excepth that it is a part of my past . It was a means to an end to get you here. You have to have all lifes experiences as a healer, in order to help others with their problems when they come to YOU.
It is easer for a man on a camel to fit through the eye of an needle than it is to enter the kingdom of heaven a wealthy man. You cannot help others if you do not know what it feels like to suffer, to be with out, to suffer the worst heart ache, to have your babies need for something you can't produce..
You work will come from many avenues, no one job for the rest of you life. You are being called to serve, to service the Lord. He is putting you where you are needed most, where you will and can help the most. Mr reluctant messiah come down off your high horse and look at those around you. I mean really look. There are people suffering and asking you for help everyway shape possible all around you!
You will have a diiferent jobe sometimes every 6 months to a year or 2, because he will place you where you said you would help. It really is not about you getting what you need this lifetime and gfriend has same energy. It is about. You are about helping others get what they want nad need. REMEMBER, you have already worked this kind of stuff out many lifetimes ago. Your energy is to heal the best way you know how. Do you sing, make things, give good massage, kind words ,help people make their life changes. And people change sometimes just by having you around, talking , you truly have a way with people you know what to say and to do to make them feel better. You have a craft, a gift you should focus on that you take for granted> Something from your past you think is just a Hobby. You don't take it seriously, something you had to give up or quit doing as a teenager or a child that is your gift.. You are being told to stop, stopping. You are stagnating when you do this stuck so to speak. You are being told just take a damn job already especially if it has nothing to do with fashion, just get up and get that energy moving, so it will come, the rewards wiil come. But you think some of these jobs are beneath you. Come down off your high horse my friend and see how the real world is. Get involved, don't roll up the window of you escalade and go to your mansion on the hill and pretend you don't see the ones needing you crying out for you help.
Let go of toxic relationships, you have several friends and relatives sucking your life force out of you. They can and will do for themselves with out you, they are adults after all, a lot better off than the others that really need your help.
Fights with gfriend are nothing more than distraction, a fly buzzing around you, you need to keep smacking away so you can get to the task at hand , but you cant, you let her distract you. And vice versa. Both pull your chins up and wake up to the new aeon. Look up to God and ask where or what you are to do next. That's all go with the flow, the rest will come.
Its just like in the movie Bruce Almighty. When Bruce asks his boss why the promotions keep passing him up. THe Boss replies" because he is an hole, you dont want ot be an do you.
Stop fighting the flow, work with it, really. Turn down the noise level around you. I know this makes you uncomfortable, being alone with yourself, your thoughts. But like Bruce you arenot going to hear your pain and suffering. You will hear the prayers of others and what they are asking you for.
I was taught, because of my energy to help, growing up that if someone asks for you help, its because they really need it. Take yourself for instance, how hard it is to ask for money to borrow money when you are not even sure when you will be able to pay it back or even if youll be able to.. Imagine asking for directions, you dont want help with that. Your ego is afraid what will others think will I look weak. So if its that hard to just ask for directions think how hard it is for people in need with big egos in the way. It is hard to ask for help, millions of people dont go to counseling that crave it, because it is hard to ask another for what they need.
Yes there are ones who take advantage of this system. Like the homeless. Asking for money on the street. My friends get mad at me "why did you give them money, you are a single parent yourself? You have chidren to feed. He is a bum and wiil use it to buy drugs or booze!
But my friend, what if this is the bottle that makes himm realize that he can no longer live like this, it makes him pass out in the door way of a business that may just happen to be lost son or daughter that is looking frantically for him. Or whatever the situation. Please don't be cynical in this world, there are enough non believers, they lost faith for whatever has happened to them and don't trust the world, mother nature nad God to take care of. We may never know what help we can be to someone in need or how far are love will reach out. Maybe homeless guy loses money accidentally in front of a hungry child whose parents neglect and do drugs and are wrapped up in their own selfish addictions because of their own pain from childhood.
Like the movie Pay It Forward too. Yes I was a single parent and I could have hoarded the money to myself and mine. It was spare change, all that I could give. I wished I could have given more. But that is my energy, I help. I vowed along time ago after much suffering about my own childhood tragedies, that I would always be a part of the solution not a part of the problem. And once you know better you can't go back and claim stupid. I forgot , who cares. You will always care, it is your energy. It is not in you to be a butt. And sometimes tempers when use dproperly in the right context are exactly what is needed. No name calling, no put downs stick to the argument at hand.
Remember the energy you give out to the world comes back on you fourfold. You send out 100% nastiness, excpect it back quadrupled. You send out 100% loving kindness, expect it back quadrupled. Most people act out of hurt, past hurts when upset. Like Madonna says in an old song " You can't Hut Me Now"... somebody hurt you to... Or U2s song.. "you act like you never had none, and you expect me to go with out"
Lots of people would call these singers ego driven. But they too had painful lives and are healers of the world, quiet, listen to their words. Bono gets accused of being to political ,he can't help it. He cares and if everyone else cared that much the world would be a different place.
So gadget do you get it about your employment? Call in all your scattered energies. Tonight before bed, really, kneel down ask God what he wants for you. You will have your know when you wkae up tha t day as it unfolds, what you are to do.
When we pray, we are asking God for what we want. And when we are quiet and listen, meditate we are in receiving mode. That is when we then get our answers.
Remember God at about Easter time. He knew what was to come, he knew his friends would not help and even tell where he could be found. He had no one to talk to around him for help, asounding board. He knew he would be persecuted for telling of faith and healing for all. He could have stopped it all at any timeto save his own self his own life. But he vowed to come here to be on this planet to give the good word to others to give hope to others.
When I feel life is being so unfair to me, I think of this story. I watch these movies again and again to remind me of my mission . I read and get a good price for my readings in my town. But I was to come here and try to give advice and help others without being paid allllll the time. This drives my kids and so called husband crazy. " Why free you are so good? You are worth so much more. They do not appreciate free advice, they call you fake because they do not value you and trust"
But I am Helping some, I get a lot of private messages, I have to listen I can't ignore. And me and my family live a fine life, sometimes money is spilling out all over, and sometimes its tight. But I learned to stop fighting with it and to go with the flow.
Another movie to check out that will help 'What the Bleep Do We Know?"
You and gfriend have gifts you are here to share. Money will come when you figure this out. And then later you join your gifts and find a way to give back to the community and your money quadrples!!
Turn off the TV and stereo and each other. Listen. Peace ranieri