Originally Posted by GlindaofOz
okay. your boyfriend USED to treat you good. You should never stay with someone because they used to treat you good. You stay because they always treat you good. Not sometimes, not every now and again. Your boyfriend should make you feel good all the time. You should not spend more time upset, crying feeling hurt then you do feeling good. Its quite possible that he wanted to sleep with and he did sleep with you and now he is done. Some guys are jerks. It doesn't mean that you are not worth loving. All it means is this clown didn't care about all the wonderful things about you, he only cared about one thing.
I still think you would benefit from a counselor. Growing up in an abusive environment has effects on you now whether you realize it or not. If you can't afford it you can contact the dept of health and human services and your town. They have counselors who work there where you pay on a sliding scale. You can get help for as little as $5. Local colleges and universities with graduate degrees in psychology are even better. Students getting advanced degrees in psych need to practice and you can be a patient for them at no cost. There is no reason to not get help. Not only with the cutting but you also seem to suffer from low self esteem.
Girls your age who go through this really break my heart. I know how hard it is to be confronted with a first love who used you. I wish I could just give you a hug and let you know it will be okay.
I have to leave but I will be on later. so if I don't reply to a message don't think that I stopped caring I just will be away from my computer.