Im not going to contact her... like I said. But here's another idea ID appreciate a response to... I love fishing... I was thinking about buying a little flats boat... of course texted her about it.. she said CONGRATS! Then two days later I talked to her and she said that I was just doing that to be "flashy" but that she does the same thing sometimes... I really do love to fish... she never did... but my question is this... why does she "want me to be happy" yet knows I'm struggling to find happiness in different aspects other then her, or sex, or finding another woman... yet doesn't say ot herself, he's buying boats and other stuff to get over me? Man, This guy really does care! I want him back?

Because she doesn't want you back.

You need to work on moving forward right now... she's not going to miraculously change her mind and decide that she was wrong about everything and that taking you back is going to make you both insanely happy.

She probably DOES want you happy. But... you need to be able to be happy without her. SHE can't be the source of your happiness... are you following me? Buying a boat to get over her seems pretty drastic in my opinion... unless you actually go out and go fishing and DO things with that boat that have nothing to do with her.