Confused as always part 2
OK.. so its between.. going away- something new, new people, greatt school, freedom.. stay home- cheaper, really good school, new people, sustaining great friendships I have, being home, possibility of the relationship I always wanted with the person I've always wanted it with.. I was staying home because I wanted time to prepare for buffalo (away school).. prepare myself mentally and academically.. was going to start at home to start on loans and scholarships and also get a feel of the college work before I go away and into a harder curriculum.. become more organized and disciplined.. THEN the boy comes back in the picture and I begin to imagine staying home and doing the college thing with him by my side.. we'd be going to the same school.. I was staying home for all the right reasons until I thought about him and scared of having him be a big factor in my decision of staying home because there's always a possibility of things going wrong.. should I go and see how it is and if I don't like it, come back? Or stay home, prepare, and have him be a possibility again? But if we do start again and its great- I may never want to go bak.. am I being naïve?