I've not been on here in a while... But here is what is going on from my previous posts...
I've been with my fiancé for 1yr 7months (7 months engaged of that).
We HAD a great relationship for first 1yr and 1 month... Then things started going down hill because of her working more. Since then she's gone from having 5 days off, to 3, to working EVERY single day now... The every day work has gone on for 2 months and we've had about 2hrs together total in the last 2 months!! Not to mention no sex in two months! We do talk nearly every day before she goes to bed, but its usually not eventful and she appears eager to get off the phone and go to bed...
This whole thing has worn at me and I'm not sure what to do... I'm not happy at all right now (and she knows it )... She doesn't give me the impression that she is going to make more time for "us"... I fill like I'm single, but yet I have the unhappiness in my life because of this crap... I do love her, that is the ONLY thing that has kept me around this long...
She says she loves me (but doesn't show happy emotion in doing so)...
We are supposed to go on a Carnival Cruise to Mexico in two weeks... I don't know whether I should end this or should I keep on waiting around until she decides to make time for me? I mean I know she is working to pay off some massive bills from the younger days and credit cards... But if you love someone, shouldn't you do more then say I love you? I have pondered breaking up with her many times, but haven't... So if this cruise goes well, maybe that will show me she does love me and that work is just what she is about right now... BUT... If this cruise goes so-so or not well, that might be a sign?
I really hate that things have gotten like this... I wanted us to be great, and I love her... But with no time together and no physical intimacy, I fill I've been pushed (or more forced) to resort to thinking of leaving this...