I Cheated and Cant Forgive Myself
Has anyone ever been unfaithful to a husband, wife or partner? Well I have and I got caught almost literally in the act. It was a terrible situation to be sure. My husband and I hadn't been getting along, in fact, we never got along. He was supposed to be gone, again, and not coming back. I ran into an old flame, tossed back a few drinks and before you know, we were on the way back to my place, where my husband lay sleeping in bed to awake to me and "the other" in an inappropriate situation. I was very intoxicated and under the influence of something else, very upset and not in my right mind by any means. My judgment was definitely clouded. I wouldn't have done it otherwise. My husband came back to me to try to "work it out" only to leave a week later because he couldn't forgive me. I apologized profusely, accepted responsibility and vowed it would never happen again. It wasn't enough. Even though I'd forgiven him for previous infidelities and lots of other things, he just can't put this behind him. Our relationship was horrible and I know that it's for the best that its over but to have it end this way is EATING ME ALIVE. I need some help fast! I started counseling shortly after but I think I need something more intensive than once a week. If there are any kind souls out there that could help I would greatly appreciate it. Please someon send me a life preserver, sometimes good people make stupid choices! :(