Thanks for the answers I've got and I guess I agree to all you said but right now I am more focus of getting him back which gives a negative effects on me. I might be wrong of doing so but for me there's nothing wrong of doing what you thought is right and could make you happy as long as you're not hurting anyone. On this case I might hurting him for giving pressure about our relationship. But I am not giving him an ultimatum nor a choice but was giving him only space to think and assurance that I am just right here for him. He might loss his love for me and that's the thing I want to find out later.

My troubles now I often sent him mail explaining that he actually got my letters in a wrong way which I thought the reason that make him more furious and add to his confusion to our relationship that make him abruptly decided to break me. Whatever it is I'm sure on his type he will surely hate it if he find it the wrong way. Does it make him stay away from me more where I kept on explaining to him thing I was not sure if it was really the reason of him being more confused of our situation? I also kept sending him text messages about my plans for myself and what I am going to do later and what's going on. My purpose I want him to feel that no matter what will happen my life must go on and I am determined to do the thing that I want. What's the effect if he would feel that I seems ignore our break up though I am feeling down at moment just my thought that it might make him realize if I'm important or not. Is it one way of working out to make him go back with me?

Anyway he was used of me begging, crying, showing him how needy I am to get him back every time we had break up and how desperate I am for him. Does this changes will make him go away for good that he might thought that I don't feel for him anymore? Maybe it was me who is used that after the break up then later he's back to me? I really need some opinions. I am really confused now. And I would truly appreciate all answers.

No offense, but if you keep throwing yourself at his feet you will end up as nothing but his personal doormat and get treated as such.
Back off with the letters, phone calls, whatever... just back off before it reaches stalker-like proportions; otherwise, the only thing you'll get from him is a subpoena. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, sorry to use that chiche, but it is however true. If it were meant to be he will contact you, if not, then gracefully move on. You can't make anybody love you.

Back off and think of yourself. Leave him alone, and move on and find someone new & better.

There is nothing worse than being in love and being rejected.
You WILL get better one day.

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I would leave him alone and move on, why stay in a relationship that he keeps breaking up with you. My ex has done this to me 6 times. It's not going to work.