We've dated before... earlier on this year and before that we knew eachother for a year. He told me eveything about his life (even things his own family didn't know even things his best friends for ever didn't know). We grew closer with time and the night he asked me out was the one night I swear I will never forget. We dated for like 2 months and it ended with he and I on mutual agreement terms and us saying that it might be better this way. It was not, so I tried replacing him with my friend (we'll call him Mr.S for stupid) and well, that blew up in my face. He asked me out when we had barely known each other for a month but I was so misserable and so alone that I guess I turned to him for comfort (mistake # 1). After about 4 weeks of he and I being together we threw a party at his house (for just close friends) in celebration of our "love". We both got drunk and I guess I stumbled into bed with him (BIG UGLY MISTAKE #2). During the entire time I was with Mr. S, I wore the necklace Mr. X had bought me and I spoek to him like every day. Eventually Mr. S (the dirtbag) dumped me for another girl (ouch) and I was a bit stronger I guess. I told Mr. X and we started talking more and more. We got back together almost a week after Mr. S and i broke up. He and I went through a LOT together and I love(d) him dearly. Of course, telling him I was pregnant was the hard part of our early re-relationship. He was still very suportive and wanted to be there for my baby and I. mr. S denied that it was his and went out of his way to tell his and my friends that eh thought it wasn't his. He denies it to this very day. Well, he moved to Florida and we thought that the long distance thing would work. It did for a little while but eventually it became far to hard as well as the fact that he thought he was going to have to move to Europe. We broke up about a week and a half ago and I can't seem to get over him. Yes, my feelings are kind of fading but they'renot actaully fading, they're becoming numb. And I SURE AS HELL do NOT want to be one of those lonely old ladies who is sad about her life because she lost that one guy.
Sorry my story is so long.
Basically, i'm looking for tips and help... like, I know it's one of those things I just need to get over but even with the USofA seperating us, I still <3 him..