My 24-year old son is an alcoholic. Since he graduated from High School, I have been struggling with him to do something with his life. He dropped out of college, does not want to work, does not want to do anything, except drink, write music and watch sports. He is so angry at me because he says that I let my cousin, who was his live-in nanny, hit him all the time and I didn't do anything about. I worked long hours. I admit I made a mistake by ignoring the problem about them not getting along. My cousin did not hit him constantly. She is a good woman who sometimes took drastic measures because my son was always egging her. After so many years trying to have my son forgive me and having him at my house drinking and not working, I kicked him out because he stoled my credit cards since I refused to give him a ride to someone's friend. We were always fighting, he would always tell me that he was going to make me pay for everything I did and that it was my duty to support him because he was my son. He would always tell me that he didn't care about me. I have been worried sick. It's been a month since he has been gone and I logged into his web page. In that page, he describes the situation he is in and that he is homeless and in terrible health. I don't know what to do, should I look for him and ask him back. I just think that he will not change and will continue to keep on abusing me verbally and hating me. Am I a horrible mom because I don't go look for him and because I kicked him out knowing that he was going to be homeless. I am just so tired of dealing with his drinking and his anger. This is the second time I have done kicked him out but he just does not want to follow any rules. All his friends are gone, his father kicked him out also.