Stress, friendship, & negative thoughts
I'm having an issue now with my stress. Who doesn't right? Well I've been noticing that my stress from school has been overwhelming in a different way. I seriously feel like I'm going crazy in my own thoughts and I catch myself telling myself to stop thinking negative thoughts. Such thoughts that consists of I'm not good enough, the person I'm dating I wouldn't be good enough for them, I'm not entertaining enough to have friends to call me, weird thoughts. I cried the past couple days because I couldn't take them anymor. I try very hard to ignore them and do things that try to motivate me. It helps a little but they're still there. I know it will pass but I don't know why they come up so suddenly and hard. I start to feel needy of someone's presence and understanding but I become afraid to share what's going on in my head because I've tried expressing and it's not what I want to hear or feel as though they're even listening to understand where I come from.
Then just recently I asked if I can bring over the guy I'm dating to my friends house my friend said he doesn't like his AURA? WHO does that? iit hurt that I had to hear something like that when my friend isn't even a specialized aura reader or whatever they're known as. He only met my date once! And he feels as though he can't trust him. I've been thinking and doubting how I make friendships with people and I think or knew that I make a great friend but it's hard to find good friends in return. At this point I feel lonely and I wish just like anyone else on here I could call someone but don't really have anyone to. It feels as though the people I'm surrounded by are selfish and self absorbed. I don't know what to think anymore.
Please any advice welcome
