It seems that everything in my life has always been a sham: my friends, my parents love, my relatives love towards me. I always overhear my friends talking about me in a negative regard, its really hateful speech, and I always take it really badly. I overhear my parents arguing about me, how they don't even love me. They hate me, and I do not have the slightest clue why. My relatives all don't like me because I am sad and depressed and antisocial all the time. I have tried to kill myself before, and have considered doing it again, what should I do?