Help me, I think I have depression and it's killing me. I constantly feels sad and unhappy. I always vomit because I don't feel like eating. I have a nice job with a good pay and I'm only 22. People always tells me I should be thankful and content with what I have because I'm young. I've had a sad teenage year due to my dad's stroke case. We lost everything when he was sick- love,family and money. Mom was sad and family arguments always happens. I cried everyday having to come home to a dad who couldn't even greet me and couldn't walk properly.

It's been almost 3 yrs since dad passed away. He suffered for 8 yrs and so did I. My family's broken now with my bro and sis living abroad, leaving only me and my mom here. Mom's getting older by the days and she's suffering slipped disc. She couldn't move properly and it hurts to see her move that way.

I need some mental advice, I've been trying hard to get away from what has happened to me during my teenage yrs. I'm working in a big organisation, my superior loves me, I have a loving boyfriend but still, I hate myself, I hate my job and I refuse to believe in whatever which is good.
I don't like to smile, I can't focus and I even tender in my resignation letter just because I hated my job. I'd love to settle down yet I still feel like I'm trapped in my teens.

I vomit and I get severe headaches. I'd go very violent like throwing things, taking the hammer and even cutting myself if things doesn't go my way. I'm ashamed of my outburst cause I've even beaten my boyfriend and my mom due to my anger distress. They've forgiven me but I can't continue on like this.

I need some advice to get away from this anger and depressed feeling I have. Advice...

Have you ever thought about going to a conseulor? Or a thereapist?

STOP, take a deep breath. Engulf yourself with logic and reasoning and read.
Look at what you've gone through and you're still alive. Age and experience my friend. Live and fight your sorrow. Be strong. It's what your family would want. Love yourself and live your own life. Do not dwell on the past, but rather shape your own future. Don't feel guilty for the inevitable. Being sad will only make your life worse. Personally you have it good. Ease up a bit. You have a boyfriend, tell him how you feel. He will help you through this. As for the cutting, you want to relinquish the emotional pain by inflicting physical pain.
Life is the challenge. Conquer it. You can do it. Loosen up a bit. Enjoy yourself, and have faith.

Skrypt gave you some nice words, but in the real world of depression people who are truly suffering hate to hear the words "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" or "just get over it." It's just not possible.

You need to seek out a therapist who can work through your problems, help you deal with your feelings.

If you have been feeling like this for more than 2 weeks it is most likely depression. Please seek the help you so deserve.

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Originally Posted by Ascil

help me, I think I have depression and it's killing me. I constantly feels sad and unhappy. I always vomit because I don't feel like eating. I have a nice job with a good pay and I'm only 22. People always tells me i should be thankful and content with what i have because i'm young. I've had a sad teenage year due to my dad's stroke case. We lost everything when he was sick- love,family and money. Mom was sad and family arguements always happens. I cried everyday having to come home to a dad who couldn't even greet me and couldn't walk properly.

It's been almost 3 yrs since dad passed away. He suffered for 8 yrs and so did i. My family's broken now with my bro and sis living abroad, leaving only me and my mom here. Mom's getting older by the days and she's suffering slipped disc. She couldn't move properly and it hurts to see her move tht way.

I need some mental advice, I've been trying hard to get away from what has happened to me during my teenage yrs. I'm working in a big organisation, my superior loves me, i have a loving bf but still, I hate myself, I hate my job and i refuse to believe in whatever which is good.
I don't like to smile, I can't focus and I even tender in my resignation letter just because i hated my job. I'd love to settle down yet I still feel like i'm trapped in my teens.

I vomit and I get severe headaches. I'd go very violent like throwing things, taking the hammer and even cutting myself if things doesn't go my way. I'm ashamed of my outburst cause I've even beaten my bf and my mom due to my anger distress. They've forgiven me but I can't continue on like this.

I need some advice to get away from this anger and depressed feeling I have. advice...

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I feel the same sometimes. I suggest you see a councillor at your local gp surgery. It may help to talk to someone who doesn't know you or your family.

This is what happened when we allow our pain to control us, our world become smaller and smaller until our life just evolves around the pain that we experience, life is full of struggles and we should find a way to deal with it in a healthy way, try to count your blessings rather then your sorrows.