Originally Posted by Ascil
help me, I think I have depression and it's killing me. I constantly feels sad and unhappy. I always vomit because I don't feel like eating. I have a nice job with a good pay and I'm only 22. People always tells me i should be thankful and content with what i have because i'm young. I've had a sad teenage year due to my dad's stroke case. We lost everything when he was sick- love,family and money. Mom was sad and family arguements always happens. I cried everyday having to come home to a dad who couldn't even greet me and couldn't walk properly.
It's been almost 3 yrs since dad passed away. He suffered for 8 yrs and so did i. My family's broken now with my bro and sis living abroad, leaving only me and my mom here. Mom's getting older by the days and she's suffering slipped disc. She couldn't move properly and it hurts to see her move tht way.
I need some mental advice, I've been trying hard to get away from what has happened to me during my teenage yrs. I'm working in a big organisation, my superior loves me, i have a loving bf but still, I hate myself, I hate my job and i refuse to believe in whatever which is good.
I don't like to smile, I can't focus and I even tender in my resignation letter just because i hated my job. I'd love to settle down yet I still feel like i'm trapped in my teens.
I vomit and I get severe headaches. I'd go very violent like throwing things, taking the hammer and even cutting myself if things doesn't go my way. I'm ashamed of my outburst cause I've even beaten my bf and my mom due to my anger distress. They've forgiven me but I can't continue on like this.
I need some advice to get away from this anger and depressed feeling I have. advice...