I am 40 years old, divorced from the love of my life because of my stupidity. I think I am in love with another man, but he couldn't care about me, has cheated on me and belittles me. I know I am not good enough for anyone, so I have been with this man or almost 7 years. I have two beautiful boys my only reason for living. He doesn't interact with them at all, I have been raising his son since the age of 8 because his mother jumped off a roof ( smart).

I am so alone, my mother ignores me, my dad moved away, my husband left and my kids I feel would be better off without me. How can one person feel so alone? I am sitting here in my room alone crying like I DO EVERY NIGHT.

Don't Give Up... I Will Keep You In My Prayers

Heyy you got to perk up, no please understand this people, all people go through a little stage like omg I want to die, lord kill me... but you know, the only time a person dies naturally is when there fun in mortal life is over, so you still have fun in your lifwe don't give up :D

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Originally Posted by i am stupid

I am 40 years old, divorced from the love of my life because of my stupidity. I think I am in love with another man, but he couldn't care about me, has cheated on me and belittles me. I know I am not good enough for anyone, so I have been with this man or almost 7 years. I have two beautiful boys my only reason for living. He doesn't interact with them at all, I have been raising his son since the age of 8 b/c his mother jumped off a roof ( smart).

I am so alone, my mother ignores me, my dad moved away, my husband left and my kids I feel would be better off without me. How can one person feel so alone? I am sitting here in my room alone crying like i DO EVERY NIGHT.

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I've been there, but I finally told myself that I was a good mother, smart in some areas, but uninformed in others and that does not make me stupid! Stop putting yourself down. One night I was so down that I finally got on my knees and asked God to bring me a good Christian man who would love me for who I am, take care of me and my daughter and God did just that. We have been married for 25 years. Life is beautiful but only if you make it that way. God loves you and so do I.
Punky