I desperatly need some advice. Im a 24 year old guy and I'm feeling really confused right now. I was in a relationship for 6 years with my last girlfriend, things were great but half way into it I really started to doubt my love for her. My parents were going through a really bad patch at the time because my father is an alcoholic. I had no one to turn to and ended up turing to drink and drunks, which really messed me up. After the 6 years I decided enough was enough and so I ran away to Asia to clear my head.
When I got back I told my GF it was not working for me anymore and we went our separate ways. After 9 months I went to Auz and met an Italian girl. She made me feel like I have never felt before, I think I was in love, and I really wanted the best for her. But she had to leave and go back to Italy after 3 months. We agreed to stay faithful and together for 3 months and then we would meet. She was madly in love with me and I doubted my love for her, mostly because of the situation. So when she left I fell to pieces and became seriously depressed. I came home and a few weeks later she came to England. I was terrifed about meeting her and when I finally did it was overwhelming, my knees were shaking and everything.
We spent a day at a hotel together but because I'm a bit shy it was very strange. Then we moved intogether and we got on really well. I really really like her, she's beautiful, funny, has a great personality and we have a great time. But I don't know if I love her, mostly because I feel unhappy at the moment. I don't know what I want to do or where I want to live. We were going to move away together but I was scarred of the comittment as I have done this once before. So, after 4 weeks together we spoke and I decided she should go home for a while so I can understand what I want. She has really put my head in a spin. Its been two weeks now and I'm crying everday, I'm such a mess.
I have never met anyone like her and really believe that I won't again. But I still doubt my love for her. I suppose you could say that I'm insecure and she is very sure of herself. If we were to be together that would mean her moving to England, which she is preapred to do. Can you give me some advice? I really want her and need her but I'm not sure if I love her. But I'm constantly thinking about her. Do you think that because of us meeting abroad and being apart for all that time, then moving intogether I'm just still in shock? I've never met anyone like her and want to be with her yet I don't want to hurt her. I will feel responsible if she moves here to be with me, its such a big step. She's madly in love with me and I don't want to hurt her anymore. What can I do?
