Okay so I am bi-polar and have horrible mood swings.
A couple of months ago, my doctor put on the lithium and it began to calm me down.
But after a while it got in the way of my Prozac so I had to lower my dosage, then my moodswings rapidly returned.
My boyfriend of 3 years has been through everything with me as far as my mania goes.
But two weeks ago he broke up with me, telling me that he could no longer handle me and my crazy (direct quote).
He doesn't understand that I have no control over myself, I just blow. I scream, I hit and I have no control. He said he could no longer accept my apoligies or my pleads.
But I need him. Without him I have no one.

How can I possibly make things right?
Will it ever be right?
What's wrong with me?

I am so sorry you have to go through this Bipolar can be terrible.

Now, you don't NEED him. No one NEEDS anyone.

So,you are taking lithium, has your doc explained how it works in conjunction with salt intake? This may be part of the problem with your meds. With Lithium you need to watch your salt intake very seriously.

Also, there are other drugs out there that may work better. I am sure you know that meds are trial and error as they work on every individual differently.

Right now you need to concentrate on you. You need to make yourself better, get your meds under control, etc before you can expect a relationship to work. Bipoar disorder can be just as hard, sometimes harder, on the ones we love. Let him take some time to catch his breath and clear his mind while you work on you and your meds.

I can't, I need him.
I do.
I've never been crazy and without him.
I disgust myself.
I don't like myself.
He's was the only thing that kept me sane enough to not kill myself.
I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't come back.
I don't want to be alone.
I don't want to be different.
I hate being like this.
And I go down to my lowest lows when I think about all the horrible things I've said to him.
But I haven't seen him in two days and I've recked my entire apartment.
I hate being like this.

This relationship is not healthy for you.You need to realize this person is not abe to deal with this sickness,and you need to find a way to fix your insecurities,or you will waste the best part of your life on a man.

I know exactly how you feel
My boyfriend is the same way
And I'm experiencing signs and symptoms of BiPolar
I used to be so nice and loving
Now I'm a crazy B****
I've screwed up so many times... and he's giving me chance after chance
But I keep screwing up, I'm afraid ill lose him
I don't know what I would do if I did
He says he hates me and what happened to the girl he feel in love with
I'm where you are
If I lost him I wouldn't know what to do with myself
I don't have any advice for you
But your not alone

Amy

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I am the same way. I've actually always been very moody. I fell in love with a remarkable man. We've been together for a year now and he's the sweetest guy I've ever been with. He respects me and does nice things for me all the time. Lately I've been getting very moody. He says I'm not the sweet and caring woman he fell for. Iv'e just been aware that I'm actually bipolar but I've said some really mean things to him that would make anyone hate me. I didn't mean the bad things I said. I really love and appreciate him being there for me all the time. Even when there's no one else there. I don't want to be bipolar. I wish I didn't have these inexplicable aggressive and depressed mood swings. Sometimes I feel anxiety and mixed feelings. Just saying, you're not alone. I want to change my attitude and get med so we can be together again. Because I don't think ANYONE will put up with a bipolar person if they aren't getting help or meds. I would personally get fed up with myself too. I just hope that I can change soon to save our relationship. Because what we had was amazing.

I'm bipolar and I am going through the same struggle as you. I've been dating my boyfriend for 2 years and everything's been great but I often get these violent mood swings and I really worry that he'll leave me or be fed up with it. If he is not willing to be with you after all you've already been through with him, then you're probably better off without him. He should be more understanding, especially since you've been dating for so long! It might be that he is temporarily feeling overwhelmed, and in that case, I'd talk to him about possibly taking a break, but not breaking up altogether. Just tell him how you feel and let him know that you will try your best to control yourself, but that sometimes things just happen that are beyond your control (trust me I've been there many a time-- I kicked his car door in and broke his lap top in the past) :( Anyway, I'm so sorry that happened to you and I wish you the best of luck! Just know that you're not alone, and you're probably a genius ;) (a lot of bipolar people are!) :)