OK so I broke up with my boyfriend a couple of weeks ago. We were together for a long time and he usually kept me outa trouble. Well now that I'm single, I've been partying a lot and doing crazy that I usually wouldn't do. I've been drinking and smoking almost everyday and doing pain killers and stuff that just isn't me. I hate this feeling. I'm now really depressed and its like I can't pull myself outa this rut.
But here's my main delema: yesterday, I got really really drunk with my best friend and this guy I like. We ended up having a 3some and now I totally regret it! I kind of really liked him and now I feel like he'll think I'm a cheap slut or something because I barely knew him and had sex with him. Not only that but a 3some. Id never do a thing like that before(its just not me!)
So what's going on? How can I realize what I need to do as an individual and as a responsible young adult? I know what I should do(find some activities to occupy my life, and forget about boys and drugs) but its like I don't know how to get to the point where I can be self sufficient and happy. I'm tired of feeling worthless and bad about myself and my actions. Help?