Reading through my older posts I have noticed how much I have grown as a person and received the help I needed.
Moving to University has been great and I've met wonderful people. One guy has stolen my heart and is the nicest guy I've ever come across. He's been there for me at my worst and understands my condition. However I do think he only likes me as a friend since the signs are very mixed.
He would invite me to his birthday But then not talk to me or look at me in class. He'll ask my friends about me but hardly ever talk to me. He's confusing, possibly shy and he probably thinks I'm stupid because I act weird and make drama out of things. He's also called me a "character" previously which I don't know the meaning of and thinks of me as a poor little girl suffering from anxiety who needs help. Thing is, it's really hard to get over him since I see him so frequently but I do not want to lose the friendship. I also thinks there's a certain perception he has of brown girls being a white guy himself which makes him really awkward sometimes. How can I best deal with this situation without causing too much emotional pain to myself ? It is extremely disheartening to be rejected and it is impacting my self esteem.