Originally Posted by
Aurora_Bell
Today I found out a very close aunt of mine was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.This woman was such a hige part of my life growing up. They don't know if they have caught it in time. She undergoes surgury this Monday.
No one this close has ever been diagnosed with this disease. I am going to visit her in the hospital this Saturnday.
I have a really hard time expressing my emotions, I am kind of socially retarded. It's not that I don't feel compassion, I just don't know how to express it to humans. I can go home and bawl my eyes out, I can think of a million comforting words, but as soon as I am face to face, I blank. I almost act like nothing is wrong. I make small chat, watch tv with them, It's like I pretend that nothing is wrong. I know people survive this and go to live long happy healty lives cancer free, but I mean it's still cancer, anything can happen.
To me she still seems so young I mean she is no spring chicken, but by no means ready for the rocker and yarn. She is late 50's - early 60's. Is very active, goes to bingo, bowling, camping, eats very healthy, and is and loves to walk. She walks everywhere.
Have any of you guys been through this? How did you deal and cope?
Do you think my being there is enough to show her that I truly care, is it okay if I don't talk about "it"?