My husband and I have been together for about 4+ years. It's been pretty rough.
About a year ago I caught him cheating on me. By cheating I mean, going on discreet dating websites, emailing escorts- just your basic internet cheating. Although he denies ever meeting anybody, I really am in disbelief and I will be honest with you guys, I have brought it up a time or two.
I left him for a little bit, twice actually, but I ended up coming back to him.
This is not the only issue, he seems to always be right. I may be exaggerating just a bit but if you were to tally how many times he's right over me he'd be the ultimate champion. What things is he right about? Well almost anything, directions to a location [I end up getting us lost], any life choices I make [I started this business and it ended up failing just like he said it would, I started working out and he said I would quit and I did after a while]. And it just seems that now I am really doubting myself and I'm actually beginning to think that I am stupid.
I really don't know how to talk to him or express my feelings to him because the conversation seems to turn at some point to make him seem like he's in the right and I'm the big dummy.
Almost daily [okay maybe every other day] I'm called everything under the sun. I've also noticed that now we are starting to get physical; I do admit I hit him, slap him, bite him, pull his hair, shove him or just anything to get him off me [and he doesn't hold back to hit me, pull my hair, or do whatever I did to him]. I've had my moments where I just broke down and cried for him to just leave me alone or in the middle of a conversation when he's "right" again.
Moment of truth: I do want and I don't want to leave this marriage. I do because this relationship is clearly unhealthy, I don't because of financial reasons and the fact that I actually love this man.
I'm just lost!
MRS.S