Can a termination ruin a man's desire for sex/love making?
I am hoping that I can have much needed advice from both male and females.
I am 35years old and he is 39. I have never been married and always had short lived relationships for some reason, I suppose just never meeting the right guy. Anyway I met my current partner about 6 weeks after my previous boyfriend who cheated on me. My parnter fell for me within a couple of weeks... which was rather novel for me as nobody had ever felt this way about me. I went in to the relationship with a huge emotional wall up afraid of being hurt 'again'. Anyway we had such a fun 8 weeks until... I fell pregnant. We were both very irresponsible and my worst fear had finally came true... pregnant outside of either marriage or a committed relationship.
For a few days I was warming to the prospect, but after speaking to people reality hit home and I realised that I didn't know this man at all. I knew a few things about his past which I didn't sit well with me all to do with morals. He also has two other children from two different women. I was also concerned about what people would say "pregnant after 2 months" my parents are highly religious and I just could nt face telling them.
I decided after 2 weeks of being on a different emotional tortured planet I just couldn't go through with it. I was also about to do something which I had once been against. I use to wear a lapel of two baby feet against abortion. I just really couldn't see any other way around this awful situation. I was terrified, angry, upset and incredibly tortured. He on the hand wanted me to have the baby. I thought after he told me about his past that I would end up as a lonely single parent on the shelf.
I had a termination. Afterwards it was a huge mix of emotions and I would have good days and bad. The guilt and regret was incredibly strong... and I knew that if I had known that I would feel like this I wouldve gone through with the pregnancy and had my child. This was 15months ago now. I have had periods where I sob for days... I did seek counselling.
Going back to after the termination when we could be physiccally active again... my partner never initiated sex anymore. I had to ask and pester him. During sex I could tell he was very different he would touch me anywhere... just do the minimum.. where as before he was all over me telling me that it was the best sex ever. Sex had now become once every 5 weeks then once evrey two months, then 3 months... then basically we haven't had sex since Sept 2010. The last time we tried he went limp. This obviously hurt me .greatly.. the rejection that I felt... unattractive... undesired.
When I asked him way back last April about how he felt about what I had to do (termination) he said I don't think about it anymore, I've buried it. Which I replied it isn't healthy to bury things you must talk to me. He has given me strange reasons for not having sex and never quite telling me the truth. Until I pestered him for truth and he says it must have something to do with the termintation. Also his past relationships an ex fell pregnant too... this timem though he didn't want her to have the baby... but she did... he has never seen this child. So this is two women who have gone against his wishes... could this be part of it too ( I am sure).
He explains that his lack of sexual feeling isn't improving at all. I on the other hand are desperate for a child... but obviously this isn't going to happen.
Please help and advise. He says he will go to the doctors but that has been for last 6 weeks.
I am moving out in to my own place but we are not splitting up... a good move or not?
Threads merged, for the whole story.
Hi,
I have already posted on here and with your advise I have really looked at this relationship which has been built on 'flaky' foundations.
I spoke to my partner at christmas and told him that if I didn't see any changes I would have leave. We have been together for over 18months. He is still at the stage of getting incredibly wasted (drunk) even at the age of 39. Often going out with his other friends who appear still to be at the stage of getting paralytic, quite unsightly for men of this age. After our unfortunate accident he lost all desire in taking me out and this is only after being together for 2months nearly. I gave it time, he would always have excuses for not bothering with me... relating to money. But he would proceed to spend nearly £100 on a night out with the 'boys'.
I have quite frankly had enough... and I really don't know what he is getting from this relationship... no sex, no desire to wine and dine me, no intamcy... but a most loyal girlfriend with good morals. Is moving out the right decision? I moved in to his after 6 months due to pressure from him... I am cross that I gave up my independence to move so early on in our relationship. I suppose I moved in because I thought it would help our healing process... but unfortunately he never spoke of it... and if he found me sobbing he would tell to stop attention seeking.
Please a little advise would be welcomed.
Thanks in anticipation
He doesn't want us to split up but he also isn't making any effort in keeping me here. He still hasn't been to the doctors about his lack of sexual desire. I know I do deserve to be treat much better