I have been married for 8 years, I love him. He says he loves me. However he don't touch me. I feel lonely and depressed I don't remember what it feel's like to held. He say's mean nasty things to me when I try to talk to him about this. He screams at me like's to turn the problem around to some how place blame on me. I just want him to get the help he need's but he won't and I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. He has never had kid's of his own I have two and are older and moved out. He uses them to hurt me. It is the most bizarre thing I have even come across. He tell's me he don't want to have sex mon-fri cause it's a work week. Then fri night's he bowls with the guy's Tuesday night's he golf's with the guy's Sunday he need's thing's from the store for Monday. Well week is over and what about me. I feel like I come in whenever it is convent to him. He has told me to visit the toy store, I was very hurt by that I am not that kind of lady. He just said to me. What's the point to get medicine to give me a hard on and I don't feel like doing anything anyway. I am not unattractive. It's like I have to beg him for any kind of affection. I am lost and don't know what else to try. I run a successful business he has been at the same plant for 34 years kids are out no problems other than this. I feel like we only do what he wants to do when he wants to do them and I watch him when he is with his friends and he seams to have more fun with them. I deal with him coming in after bars close being drunk leaving me places and talking to me like I am dirt on the bottom of his shoe. Lonely and Lost