Depression- leading to death?
Hii ever since the middle of September last year I've been depressed but I never really thought it was depression until a couple months ago. I knew that I was sad and my moods changed all the time but it never really hit me that I was depressedf until I found out that my grandfather suffers from depression. But what I can't figure out it what really triggered the depression. My great grandfather passed away in September and I never really had 2 deal with death before that but I was fine after that happened. At christmas my and my boy friend began having some problems and that was when I really started getting depressed and I told my mom about it but she didn't do anything, I also be gan having problems with my family around the same time. I no longer felt like I was a part of the family. In November my younger brother caught me looking at suicide websites and told my mom about it who them confronted me. A couple weeks back my mom saw that I was upset and came to talk to me about it, but after her knowing for so long already I asked her why she just know decided to take interest in my depression and she told me that I need to go see my doctor. But what I'mn not sure about it why she's not taking action? Does she think that this is all a big joke?:confused: I', not sure wha I'm supposed to do anymore I want to give up and kill my self:( I'm once again having suicudal thoughts of overdosing or cutting my wrists:( I need help but don't know how to go about getting it