I have been a self mutilator for about 10 years (I'm 22), I have been married for 17 months and have not cut myself since a little while before. I am also 35 weeks pregnant. My husband and I barely have a relationship because all he does is sit on his computer and tonight I caught my husband masturbating to naked women on his computer, and I want to cut SOOOO bad. I would never do anything to harm my baby or my chances of having custody if I do decide to leave him, but how do I make this desire go away? Its like a strong craving and my arms physically itch. I have been to a mental heath facility and they turned me away. I was told my problems were do to an under active thyroid, but my levels have been normal for years. Please help me before I do something stupid and ruin my life even more... :( :confused: :mad: