I've delt with depression for a couple of ongoing years now. I never imagined myself living this long but here I am. I've been through a lot, but one thing that still manages to get to me is relationships. There was this one guy and well I was supported and felt safe, he was like home. He left me for another girl. I can't forget that night. My source of happiness was also someone else's. And this other guy loved me but wasn't supportive. It was like using a cookie cutter and pressing it against your dough. It comes out in the shape of the cutter. No other shape would fit inside of it. That's kinda like me with him. Theres this spot in my heart for him and no one else fits. I'm really ed up at the moment, but I want to know if im getting better. I stopped cutting 3.5 months ago, but I still feel this ongoing pain. Why?

You may have pain, but you haven't cut in 3.5 months so yeah, I would say you are better.