Got engaged but I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do?
I recently got engaged to my boyfriend of one year. He is a lovely man, and I'm sure he loves me and my children, but I'm scared this isn't the right thing to do.
He was there for me when I broke up with my ex-husband and I'm positive my children love him, too. My oldest son even suggested we should get married one day.
However, I still think I have feelings for my ex-husband. It was an abusive relationship (he's an alcoholic, he'd cheat on me lots of times and he'd hit me when he got drunk), but I've known him ever since I was 7 and he stuck with me for the hardest moments of my life. We had five children together and I loved him with all my life, but he found someone else.
I don't know what to do. Sometimes I think I only agreed to marry my boyfriend because I didn't want to upset me, or because my little girl keeps asking me to find her a new daddy (her father practically disappeared after we broke up). I really like my fiancée and I think we'd have a great life together, but I'm really scared.