my granny died, my inspiration i need her back and don't no what to do?
Im 13 yrs old and my gran died not long ago.
she was always there for me and I don't know what to do.
she became a fann of the alcohol when her husband died(before I was born he was dead along with both my dads parents so she was and still is so special to me) eventually the alcohol gave her a bad bad bad case of dementia. She never remembered anything anyone. Even my family stopped going to see her except for me! Every morning at 10 am on the dott I would go keep her company and bare with her illness. It was so hard for she forgot everything. I tried explaining who people were and walked her to see her old friends who stopped talking to her. I watched her get worse and worse and eventually her cancer in her throat came back. She went to a home and I would still go see her. She was near death and was taken to hopital and she came back! My gran who she really was ! It was like the dementia was gone for a while! She told us we were beautiful and loved us and she then forgot everything again. She called me over and said "love I remember u coming to see me everymorning but forgot everythong else. She then passed away. I made a speech at her funeral I thought I would get to upset or get to nervous but I know it was her who helped me block everyone else out and I simply just read it to my granny! I'm having so much trouble coping with her death and I just want to see her again! I look for ways to connect but I don't know what to do! Have u got any suggestions how? X :(