I'm scared to kill myself but I've lost it all.
Well I've had this thought for a long time now. Im 24 now and its probably been since I was in middle school since I've hated my life. I have wanted to do it so bad for the last half of my life but I cant. I suffer everyday wishing I could. I am a new father of a 2 month ild who is my world but after my ex and I broke up I barely see him. I grew up with barely a dad and id hate to do it to him. But I figure if I can do it before he really knows who I am then his mother can find him a new dad. Anyone know a contract killer to preform the act of ending my life cause I juat cant. As I sit here I have a knife but so scared of the pain that couldn't even compare to what I've felt over the years. I need someone to help me commit this act. If you would like to help me I will tell all the bad that has happened to me if you need more reinsurance that it is the best for me.