Having a hard time forgiving
My husband and I have been married for 2 1/2 years and together for 14 years. In the beginning our relationship was very rocky. We have a daughter and have managed to work through some very difficult times. Cheating and domestic violence. We did separate for a period but eventually got back together. We have worked through that and I was able to forgive and start over. I thought we were on the same page only to find the receipt for the purchase of condems last March. I was devastated because I really worked hard to leave the past in the past and give it a real honest chance. I am so angry and my behavior is aggressive toward him. I punched him in the eye while arguing one day. While he was cheating and being abusive earler in the relationship I managed to get my Master's degree and secure a salary that is more than enough to take care of myself and my daughter. I don't know why I won't take the steps to move on. I feel guilty for creating this situation for my daughter and want her to grow up with both of her parents but honestly I cannot stand the thought of him sometimes. Any thoughts??