Okay I've written this 4 times now and each time I feel more and more like a tramp. I am seeing 4 guys at the moment. Two of them want me to be exclusive completely. They all know each other in some form but don't know each other well enough to talk about these things. I am in my mid 40s and in very good shape. First there was:
Ryan. He's 21. He is very straight acting and not out to anyone. He doesn't want a dating relationship so mostly it is just sex. We met when he was 19 at a sporting event and we started our physical relationship about 3 months after meeting. We do tons of stuff together and my friends always ask if "the boy" is coming along. Nobody suspects that we are sexual. Then there's:
Adam. Adam is 32 and we work together. I first met him about 2 years ago and he is just drop dead gorgeous. He has the perfect body and is just incredibly nice and fun to be with. Adam wants to be exclusive and truly it is the only thing we argue about. Adam is in closet too. Our work took him to Hawaii for the last two weeks and not being around him hasn't been fun. He is coming back home today though. Yea for me. Then there's:
Josh. Josh is also 32 and has a smile that would just melt you as it does me. Josh wants to be exclusive. Josh is a very sweet person but we probably have less in common compared to the others. But wow is he passionate. I've only known Josh a year or so. He's not out either. Then there's:
Sean. Sean is a bartender, almost 27, and probably one of the nicest persons I know. I met him in March and we have been together a few times. He smokes though and I honestly cannot tolerate smoking so he's trying to quit. He isn't into sports but we have many other things in common. We actually had our first argument Wednesday night. Nothing big and he apologized later that evening.
One time I was at the bar with Adam and Josh was there with his friends and Ryan showed up. Then another time I was there with Josh and Adam was there with work people and Ryan showed up. UGH. This juggling is not good. I actually have to use my calendar on my smart phone so I don't forget who I am going to be with that night. I have a friend in Maryland who I update and he always calls me a tramp.
Why can't someone love 4 people at once? Sorry this is so long.