My bf/fiance of 14 years passed away on Sept. 7th. The only way I can cope right now is to pretend I'm in my own little world. It works until I have to see someone or go somewhere and I'm thrown into reality. I'm afraid of letting it all out and I feel like I'm becoming a burden to my friends and family so I haven't been calling them. Is this denial or shock or something? I'm so afraid that I'm going to think I'm just fine and dandy and then completely lose it.