So depressed - I can't remember anything!!
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First off, I have a therapist who I see, I'm on cetalopram, so I am trying to deal with this in the way that I should.
But I cannot remember anything. I rember my friends first and last names, their significant others, and how to do normal tasks.
But I have looked at my depression medication 1000 times, and when writing this I still had to look up the name.
I have asked 6 times the name of a type of mango - and still cannot remember.
I have become terribly depressed. I actually do not see family and friends because I cannot carry out a conversation. It's a struggle to speak to people.
I have not always been like this. I have been said to talk non-stop. But right now I can't even think what I would talk about.
I have always had depression. I was so happy 6 months ago though.
But I had an abortion 2 months ago and an IUD put in at the same time. And I've never bounced back.
I actually feel nothing. I'm in love with my boyfriend and l love my friends and family, but also think I could never see any of them again and everything would be fine.
I feel like I want to die. Not actually commit suicide. But the same way I'd like to - win the lottery. It would be a relief.
I don't know what to do. I miss the way I used to be. I miss being happy. I miss feeling like myself. It's like I cannot speak. Cannot feel normal. Or like myself.
Maybe I've never been normal? I can't remember
I have NO knowledge. Is this depression?
I feel like I cannot remember ANYTHING I have ever learned. I have been in university and can't remember more than a few facts.
I have never been a person to recall musicians or bands. But I feel like I know NOTHING.
I can't answer any Jeprody or Trivia questions. My math skills are adequate.
But new information, is barely sticking. And I can't hold onto anything old. I don't remember teachers names.
I have drank a lot. Many party nights. Have I drank away all my brain cells? I used to think some facts would be foggy to me because I was out drinking with my friends. Now I feel - maybe I just can't remember things.
Should I go to the doctor? What can I do about it? Is it because I'm depressed?