Suicide is all I think about.
I was sexually, emotionally and physically abused a couple of years back... by a family member
I never talked about it... I tried writing, crying, screaming just to let the anger out... but now all I think about is ending this... I'm suffering a lot
I'm constantly feeling angry, weak and sometimes I can't even get out of bed... I've been in denial for a whole year
I can't seek professional help... I can't talk about it... and it kills me that I have to act as if nothing has ever happened and just smile it off.