My name is mogrann and I know what you are saying when you say you don't trust anyone or want to call the help hotline. I was there at one point. I still struggle with the phone to this day, even with people I know.

It is hard what we are asking you to do. I realize that, but the rewards for you are so huge. You came here asking for help. That is what we are trying to do. Self injury can be tough to beat but can be done. You will need help with it.

Couple things I would like you to do:
1. Write out what you would say to someone to ask for help. Write it out for a stranger and for a person you know. Pretend the conversation is happening. Write out what you would say to them.
2. Make a list of people you can talk to.
3. Don't let your fears stop you. Being scared is normal but sometimes we have to fight it.
4. Do some self soothing before you talk to someone. There are things that help smooth out your emotions. For me it is coloring, crafts, reading a happy book, watching a happy movie, playing WoW, a hot bath, rubbing lotions in my hands and feet or snuggling with a stuffed animal.

Self soothing is different for every person. Pick what helps you.

You can do this.

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Website URL: http://www.selfinjury.com/

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Thanks for posting this! It helps! I did this when my sister died and every time I attempt it I will think about this status!