Originally Posted by
1RandomUser
I'm not planning to feel bad. What I'm saying is I can't control my emotions like that. It's not something I can shut off. I can't simply just think I will be happy and "make" myself happy. If it were that simple, I definitely wouldn't choose to feel this way at all or even have liked her in the first place, or chosen to be depressed. This was my issue with doctors and everyone I spoke to. I do exercise daily, I reach out to my close friends, I've done everyone's suggestions. But when those thoughts and feelings come, no matter what I think it doesn't make it go away. It's like thinking a headache is in my imagination, when the feeling is so strongly there, if that makes any sense. It becomes more manageable after some time and that's what I'm working on right now, giving myself the chance to get there with time.
Thank you for your response KatyJ. I have been spending time talking to one of my close friends, and once I regain some energy I intend to get back into exercising.