I have been coming home everyday from school, or anywhere I may be, get to my room and just start crying. I cry all the time, and I just have this weird feeling in my chest all the time like pressure, or like my heart is just dropping. I really do not like myself, I don't like my legs, my nose, my love handles, I just don't like myself. I hate what I have done, and what I think a lot of the time. I try to starve myself, then I can't for more then a day and a half, so I eat something like a brownie or something or fruit or whatever is in front of me. Then after I eat it I feel disgusted with myself I hate the feeling after you eat I want to throw it all up, but I try and I cant. I used to cut myself, and I stopped, then hated myself more for being so stupid and selfish and not appreciating the life I have been given. Then recently I tried to look up on the internet how many pills of some drug I could take to overdose and die, but then I checkened out because I thought of what might happen after they revive me because I did not take enough pills.
I'm 14, 5'4 and 108lbs. Help me, please. I feel like no one understands

And I am a girl if that makes any difference

Why not go to a counselor and talk about it? They can give you exercises to boost your self-esteem.

You need to speak to someone. Can you talk to your parents? A counsellor would be a good idea. Seek help.

You are at an age where you are going to be critical of your looks and are also in the time of hormonal changes.

That being said,Keeping this information from those who love you isn't going to help,not one bit.You might be surprised what sharing these feelings of hopelessness and despair will do for you.I am of a mind that a problem shared is a problem halved.

No one can help you if they don't understand what it is you are going through.

End this chaos you are in,allow someone in to help you,be it a school counciler or a parent you trust(it doesn't even have to be your parent)

Hope to hear from you soon,

Ken

I get angry n then burst into tears, after my boyfriend n I have argument, n start yelling , we nearly broke up because my episode.

Not sure how to fix why I'm like this I need help

Lana you need to post your own thread this one is from 2009.