Question about a first love.
Hi all. I just had a quick question for anyone that has been through, or knows someone that has gone through something like this. Or even if you have an opinion. Any of them work. Basically I dated a girl when I was 17. I'm currently 23 (turned 23 a few days ago) she's a year younger. I was best friends with this girl in high school for a year and a half before we started dating. Before we started dating, she was dating a guy on my hockey team. I'll let it be known I liked her the moment I met her.
There were a few situations where she broke up with this guy, and I set them back up knowing it would destroy me, but just that I wanted her to be happy. After they were done for good, I waited for her to be ready talk while also having a few other girls who made it very clear they had wanted to talk or date me at the time. To me she was worth it. I didn't know what it meant then but I loved her very much. We dated for almost a year, and it ended due to various reasons, a lot of it having to do with outside sources although not all.
We were in contact again a few years later when I was 19. She was with another guy, and I wanted to get together to talk. I wanted to tell her all these things her friend told her were untrue. How much I realized then that I loved her. That I was 17 and I didn't know better. I made it very clear it was not my intention to break her and her boyfriend up, I just wanted to let her know that she truly was my first love. She wanted to very much, even saying she missed me, but felt uncomfortable due to having a boyfriend so I delegated not to say anything through a message or the like.
My question is this. 2 years later, I still feel as strongly for her as I did then. I've had several girlfriends. Even more short term flings and things like that. She has a different boyfriend... not sure how long they've dated. But I have a letter that I wrote up as kind of a relief thing to get some of my thoughts on paper. It explains everything. Tells her exactly how I feel. I'm curious if anyone has had experience with things like this and has or hasn't sent the letter, or whatever form it took for you, or if you kept it to yourself. I have this long out of respect for her. I love her. I know that now and I want her to be happy. I'm afraid it would confuse her, cause her to second guess what she has or things like that. Are girls happy knowing things like this or does it cause issues? I'm just curious if anyone has any input. Thanks a lot for any help or advice in advance.