Should I apologize to him?
Hi..For a year now I have in touch with this guy who lives a 2-hour flight away - we are both in our late 30's. We met once in January (2019), and planned to see each other again in upcoming May (2020), upon his return from 1-year work-related stay abroad.
I developed a crush on him and let him know about it, which boomeranged on me, as he apparently wanted to take things (more) slowly, which he also demonstrated through texting, in responding at least 3 times unreasonably late to my messages - 2 to 5 days..
Thus, during these 3 cases, I deleted his number, and during the last two cases asked him to not contact me anymore, as I found his way of communicating disrespectful. During the first two times, he said that maintaining contact was more important than how quick the response was.
Regarding the third case, when he left my message "unread" for at least 2 days, though he was only at least 4 times, I decided to not read his delayed response and end it all, but he sent me another text after 4 days asking me how the week was going... I was weak, and reacted, while also telling him there was no point of going on like this..He responded saying that I was being disrespectful, and that I should also have blocked him. I answered saying that maybe he was right about it but that I had found blocking to be a bit extreme..
We reconciled, but in hindsight now, I feel that during these cases I came off as rather needy and pushy, instead of being reasonable, considering, in particular, distance between us, and us not being on the same page, emotionally speaking. (He had told at the very beginning that he also likes me. And, recently, when I asked him again, he told me he had liked sex with me and considered me a very good friend.)
Last time we texted was 8 days ago, me being just brief and polite to his message..
All things considered, should I extend him an apology, no matter how our contact proceeds? (I feel pretty ashamed of me having adopted a predominately emotional approach instead of being more rational..)