Doesn't find me attractive, doesn't want sex with me, isn't sure he wants a relationship
Please read this, I need your help
I'm 18 and so is my boyfriend I've been with him for 10 months and for about 5 months he's telling me he's not ready to commit and isn't sure he wants a relationship.and at points he's said he wants to feel he can do stuff with other women should the situation arise.but then he changes he's mind. He hasn't said this in ages though so I'm not sure if that is an issue now. Any way he's still not 100 percent in the relationship and sometimes is still not sure if he wants to be in one . I know he loves me. Also for a few months now are sex life has been bad, it used be really good and he always wnted it. Said it was a big part of his life. Now he says he doesn't really feel like sex though he still wanks and looks at porn, and about a month ago he told me that he doesn't find me sexually attractive ( I'm not ugly and have done some modeling) , I feel so ugly now and so self conscious I have to take my makeup off in the dark and put it on the morning before he wakes up. He's always got other pics off girls as wallpapers on his PC and that, and once when I did give him head he asked if it was OK for him to watch porn at the same time, I wouldn't have a problem with this except he must be fantizing about them instead of me, and this makes me uncomfortable. I've tried hard to make him feel attracted to me again and its not like I don't make an effort every time I see him. When I try to innitiate sex he turns me down but still has a wank later.
I just need some help in how to deal with it because I'm not going to leave him. I need to feel attrctive again and be comfortable about him fantazing over other women instead of just ignoring him ann feeling betrayed hurt and unable to satisfy him. ( by the way I am adventures with him in bed).
Also how can I want him to have sex again and be more excited about out relationship.
What should I do about it all
Please wb thank you