I want to be put into care
I'm 14 and I've been unhappy at home since I was really young, it doesn't feel like a home and we basically have to look after ourselves. My dad lives in dubai and sends money home to my mum to spend on our food and clothes. My mum has a really bad case of multiple sclerosis, and takes it out on us, like its our fault. The money that's sent over, she spends on herself (cigarettes, ornaments, food). We make our own food and buy our own clothes. When I say she takes it out on us, I mean she constantly screams at us, hits us, blames everything on us, makes us feel about ourselves, she's like a bully. I know her condition affects her brain, but its made us all hate her. I can't stand to be in the same room as her because of how she makes me feel about myself, knowing that she'll make some comment about me, my little sister feels the same. I hate it here, I'd do anything to get out of here. I've run away 3 times, and she didn't even care. To make things worse, I get angry about things as well, in school mostly, so I have a lot of enemies, but they also make me feel about myself, I don't mean to insult them but it happens a lot, so yeah... what can I do? I know if I try to talk to someone, I'll just cry and get angry, I just want to get out of this house..