Whenever things go wrong between us, he starts his emotional torture!
When I first went out with this guy, I realized he is the love of my life. He loved me for what I was. But then I was too possessive about him, and never gave him the space he wanted. And he too never complained until this came up during a fight, when it was not my mistake at all. He started saying things like am not the right girl for him, I won't keep him happy, all that stuff. He had also started to talk to another girl on the phone. He also started saying things like she is better than me.and I couldn't stand it. I went to his house and begged to take me back. And then he took me in his arms and hugged me tight and said he won't talk to that girl again. And yes he didn't,and that he started it only because he couldn't find the girl in me he fell in love with. I returned home happily.since then whenever things went wrong between us, he starts giving me bad words and says he'll talk to that girl. And starts emotionally torturing me and asks me to leave him then I go crawling to him ask for forgiveness even if its not my mistake. Then again things come to its place. And the vicious cycle continues. Since then there have been lots of breakups and makeups. But I lost the person in him, who used to care for me and love me madly.
Recently after going through the Internet I realized that every time I made a mistake by begging in front of him. That whenever he asks for a breakup I should accept and avoid keeping any contact with him, then he'll come crawling back to me. That when his alone he'll miss me, cause I left behind allot of sweet memories we shared together and many little things I used to do for him. Am sure he has not yet realized that as I never gave him a chance to think.
This time this is what I did. I want him to realize that he still loves me and am the love of his life. I want him back at any cost. But am afraid me not talking to him will take him all more the far from me.
Yesterday we had a little and he started again, then I said to myself enough is enough and give him space, I accepted but I guess he took it lightly, because I many time said such things but always ended up begging with him to take me back. But this time I firm. This doesn't mean I left him forever, but just giving him time to realize. Since then I didn't call him but he himself called me during night, he wasn't rude, he asked me about my studies, but then I disconnected the phone first after talking for a minute, saying am feeling sleepy.I was really happy that he called. Next day again I didn't call him, but I met him on the way when I was out going somewhere. But I didn't smile at him. Showed a little bit of attitude. Then in the evening he called me,I was not able to answer his call. But later I called him to ask why he had called, he acted as if he was in a hurry and a bit rude, his bro had asked hi to tell me something, he told that and disconnected the phone before me saying anything. What does that mean? Should I continue with the NO CONTACT? What should I do to make him realize come back to me?
Please don't ask me to leave him, I can't even think of that