My boyfriend recently passed away a month ago. We had been together for almost two years. He was suicidal, but I know in my heart that he didn't actually want to leave and that it was a spur of the moment kind of thing. We loved each other so much, he was 22 and I am 17. He was such a gentleman, and was old-fashioned and I loved that. I can't believe he is gone. I'm over sea's right now with my family so I didn't even get to go to his funeral, or see his wonderful family and grieve with them! This pain in my heart is far too great, and I can't cope with it. I wonder if I will ever be able to love again, or even move on in a normal way! We had planned on getting married next year, and our families were so happy. I keep wondering why God would take someone away so early, but I remember that everything happens for a reason.


Please, I need help! I've never dealt with such pain in my life! He was my soulmate, and my best friend. I couldn't ask for something more perfect, and it breaks my heart knowing that when I return to the States his smile and warm hugs won't be there to greet me anymore :( :'(

Your right everything happens for a reason.and I'm truly sorry about what happened.when you lose somebody you love, you have to know there was a reason.God puts his strongest wariors through the toughest battle.your going to get through this.you need time to grieve then you need to keep yourself busy.God will help you through this just trust him and pray.I will pray for you!people tend to blame God for things he knew was going to happen.if God puts you through it,He will help you through it.
Remember pray and trust in Him.and cherish the time you had with your boyfriend.

I am sorry for your loss. Right now grieve, feel the loss, cry, it just takes time.

Next he must have had a mental health issue, that he did not get proper treatment for, since it takes a imbalance to allow yourself to kill yourself, so know he most likely was not fully in control.

But for both sides, please stop giving God so much credit or blame. God does not cause people to die, we all die, and it is our freewill that helps decide that time or place, I will not preach here and t this time. But understand, God allows man the choices to do as they wish, either good or evil, So it is not he that did anything.

Thanks you guys. It really does help when I hear from others. It's so hard to deal with this, but I'm trying my bests! Your words did help, but I guess I just need time to let this pass on by :(

I am sorry for your loss.

The panic and anxiety you are feeling right now is normal, and if you are feeling like you want to cry by all means, cry. But those feelings will go away, you will meet someone else after you get over him (as a boyfriend, not as a lost friend). Let time heal the fresh wound that you are having right now, grieve in the way you feel you must and continue to live your life.

I am really sorry to hear about your loss. Time will heal everything. You will most definitely be able to both love again and move in a normal way. But very importantly you firstly need to take the time to grieve because this is the first stage of the recovery process. Take things one day at a time. You will have bad days and good days but with time the bad days will be less and the pain you feel in your heart will subside. Surround yourself with friends and family and feel free to vent on this forum anytime.

You all are really helping me, and giving me hope! I stopped having hope of my future, and wanted to just end everything but there is something that keeps me here, and I think it's that little string of hope I have. I'm so confused about this world, and how it works and where people go when they die. Religion does help understand, but you can't be sure because no one alive knows. :/ again, thank you all SO much, really means a lot!