My boyfriend watches porn
A few weeks ago, I'm talking the start of July here, I was on my boyfriends phone (I wasn't snooping, he was with me and we were researching tortoises on the internet) I went to open up a new page and saw 2 tabs open with porn on. I was distraught.
We have a fantastic sex life, we usually have sex 7/8 times a week and it's always very passionate and hot. Anyway we talked about it, he explained how when we don't see each other for two days (monday and tuesday) he gets really horny and usually watches it on a Monday night as a release. I told him how I was uncomfortable with him watching it because it made me feel like I wasn't satisfying him and I that I didn't like the thought of him getting sexual pleasure from watching someone other than myself. I said whenever I'm horny and not with him I think of him to masturbate. He said that he didn't have the imagination to do that and that he was a very visual person, that he never found the porn stars attractive just that seeing the act of sex was a turn on.
We had a bit of an upset but it was nothing major. I said that there was nothing bad or wrong about it and I'm sure plenty of men still watch it in a relationship, but it did make me feel uncomfortable and I would rather him text me if he's feeling horny and we aren't together and then I could send him a few naughty pictures or sexts.
We moved on from it and went back to normal.
A few weeks later we went to Turkey on holiday for 2 weeks. Again I went on his phone (not through snooping, he'd noted down my thumb size and we were about to go shopping for one) I went into his notes and the latest note was a porn site. I confronted him about it and told him how I was very upset that he had been watching porn whilst we were on holiday and having sex 3 times a day. The first thing he said to me was it was from ages ago. I snapped back at him not to lie to me because it had the date it was written next to it (which was the previous day) He then admitted that he did write it down the previous day but that he hadn't used it and it was a note for when he got home for Mondays. I expressed that I was very annoyed that the first thing out of his mouth was a lie and my trust in him has fallen a bit. We talked about it for ages and I told him how it made me feel, he was very apologetic and upset with himself, he then said he would stop watching it.
Then we come to yesterday. I can't remember how we got talking about it but I told him how I was worried he still used it and whenever we aren't together at night he watches it. I asked him when was the last time he used it and he said he went on it last Thursday. Not only did we see each other, we also had sex that night. Then when he got home, he watched porn. Again, he apologised over and over again.
I just don't know what to do. I've explained to him many times how it makes me feel. I had low self esteem and confidence before (probably my reason for my dislike of him watching porn) but now it has been knocked to the ground.
I don't know if he has an addiction or not? I understand that it's probably habit from being single (we are each others firsts and only lost our virginities at 22 and 21) but could he have some kind of addiction?
Any advice on the situation would be very much appreciated.