I'm telling my story and I need to know what to do!
OK here's the situation... some people know my story and some don't...
My girlfriend did the break thing with me saying the she's not in love with me anymore but still loves me, 3 weeks ago. We were going strong for 1.5 yrs spent every moment together, it was wonderful. A week later we txed each other she said she doest see us getting back together and just wants to be friends... I told her I can't be her friend because I want to be more than a friend to her. Since she said "i dont see us getting back together" I told her "well i guess our run is over ...this time its over nex time forever", "i hope you find what your looking for in life and have a great one"... I guess she took it in a rude way because the next day she removed me from her top friends and listed herself as single.((dont really care about Facebook anyways)) the following day I wrote her a long email I guess for me it was a way to let her know how I feel and my last effort to win her back... I know I can't and its up to her if she wants to come back but I did it any way. Basically it went like this...
I'm writing this not for you but for me. I want you to know how I feel, how my heart feels which is torn from moving on from our past, losing you forever and fighting back with everything I have trying to win you heart all over again. Since you said "you'll never see us being together" I guess fighting for you will be in vain. I know you NEVER EVER meant to hurt me, I know somewhere along your way you lost all interest in me, maybe its because of my intensity to show my affection, maybe its because I spent everyday with you suffocating you till all the love died. I realize I basically pushed you away from me by loving too much... I f I can take it back would. This is one thing I'm willing to change , I realize its not healthy for any kind of relationship.
I will NEVER EVER forget you and how happy you made me feel and don't EVER feel like you never made me happy. All I ever tried was to make you happy that why I never try to fight or bust your balls or vagina all the time... I guess it made the relationship boring at times giving you everything you wanted.
I know I said I can never be your friend, and its because if you feel the way I feel and having to see you with another person will just eat me inside and that I cannot do.I don't know if I'm the right guy for you or your soul mate. I don't know if even you are my soul mate or the one for me. I don't know if I want to marry you or have babies with you. IDONT KNOW. All I do know is that I still care for you and love you after you rejected me... I don't know why! I should be running away from you , leaving you alone because you rejected me.
I know your properly going to laugh at me for writing this (ohh what a loser can't take a hint)... I know I should be laughing at myself for wanting you back but I do.
You can't blame a guy for trying
I wish you nothing but happiness in life with or without me, I know what your doing is the right thing for you and I fully respect that... I just have to accept it I guess
Well I feel a lot better now.. it took all my pride and dignity but I feel better... you don't have to ever call or write me again... I can take a hint... I know where I'm not wanted
You will always have a piece of my heart (ex) it may be small or large but its still a piece!
Don't feel like you owe me anything, and I owe you nothing
I'm always willing to wait for you to grow and be realistic and not get clouded by emotions take how much time you need, if we ever get back together I would never want to make the same mistakes I made. I am very willing to work it out TOGETHER I think it would benefit both of us, the rest is up to you. I still care for you. If you don't want this the I guess I will have to do the obvious thing and move on.
This is the last time I will ever contact you to try to make you understand how I feel for you
I will still be there for you for anything you need
I'm sorry if I'm being an annoyance to you but I know I had to say my part.
Missing you
(me)
So that's the last time I ever contacted her...
So here's the other problem... me, my sister, my ex, my exgf sister, my exgf sister's boyfriend and 3 other friends that hanged out with my exgf sister, we all worked at the same place we started hanging out like 2 yrs a ago and been inseparable friends till my girlfriend broke up with me. My sister and my exgf's sister are still best friends. Now this weekend is my sisters birthday and the whole gang is going to be there even my exgf... I don't know how to act around them anymore... its going to be weired I haven seen them in 3 weeks. And what do I say to my ex when we meet what to do what to do? To tell you the truth I still love and care about her.. I hate her for what she did... I understand she's doing this for her and I fully respect that... I don't want to be rude and ignore her and don't think I'm ready to see her... I don't think I'm fully healed what should I do? Act like nothing happened and be cool or cause a drama seen and let everyone know how I feel?
So confused right now:confused: