The only person I have in my life (mum) is terminally ill and dying. I suffer from depression and am trying to support my mum but don't feel like I am doing a very good job of it. I get resentful, angry and bitter. I have no personal support myself, no friends, no family. I have never worked due to past and present problems, I am 40 years old. I have no motivation, no self esteem and feel like a complete waste of space. I live in a room and feel totally alone and isolated. I no longer drink or smoke. How can I change my life for the better, where can I go to meet people when I don't even have the motivation to get out of bed unless I have an appointment to go to? Everything I have tried (library, gym, courses) holds no interest for me. How DO you motivate yourself?