I'm being emotionally abused
I'm have been emotionally abused since I was little. By my dad and mom. Everybody at school thinks I'm perfectly fine and happy. But in truth I hide what I'm feeling in fear that I will get hurt by other people. I moved from my dads place to my mom. I didn't move willing because I had to leave all my friend that helped me. But after a while I was happy because I thought that I would be abused there but I was wrong.
My mother is bipolar and changes her moods to fast. When I wss seven she tried to kill me with one pf those huge knives. Nothing changed my mother and dad they just like yelling. I got emotionally abused by my dad because I look like my mother. And I'm getting emotionally abused my.my mother because she's bipolar . I just want to know if there's a way I can leave without them knowing and if we don't have to go to court for it. Since I moved in with her I felt lile killing myself every time I see an razor. I just want to kill myself I feel worthless. I sometimes wished I wasn't born. My own brother told me that I should just die and that nobody wanted me and that he wished I was six feet under. He also said that he wants to beat me up.
I just want to leave I tried contacting the CPS but they didn't do anything. Please please help me. I need a way out. I can't be here anymore. I'm not going to commit suicide because I'm not wasting my life on them. I just want a way that I can leave and never see them again.
Please please help. I'll take any suggestion that will help me.