Of course I'm on here because I as well am looking for answers I so desperately need. Still my story and problems are a bit different. Truth be told my boyfriend (I live with him) has been doing drugs most of his life, had a addiction to crack etc. I as well went through that years ago. However, the differences for my situation are I am a dealer. Have been for years and can take or leave the dope. I see it as money an a little fun every now an then. Most DON'T. My boyfriend is one that don't see it that way. He says that when we met he wasn't using at that time. While I have it most all the time I have been the one to give it to him. As well as use it with him. But I made it clear that I didn't want to get him on the dope an he assured me that wouldn't happen. IT has an it started with him going to say get a fan at the store an be back in a hour to going over there then texting saying he be home at this time but when it comes time he isn't here. I start wondering an watching he continues to do it when confronted I'm the messed up one for accusing and over thinking everything or it was that I was ing. I moved out now three times an he has put me out once. Each time he has seen his wrong and he is sorry oh an he will work on it. Nope, wrong he worked at thinking he was slick an smart an playing that game real good. Then I knew it wasn't a girl but it was something. He is still lying to me an running as well as other things I'm sure I don't want to know. I asked I gave every chance at telling the truth but he couldn't do it. See I found his stash the other day. Yep I did He still continues to lie to me then finally I said hell I already know the truth but you cant tell t to me. He asked my if I knew then why let him just keep digging his hole deeper!! Wow yep so he now says he is an addict an needs my help. I'm hurt an mad. Confused, dazed, and distraught. I believe that I;m in love with this man an have done volunteer work for recovery organizations such as Eagles Bridge and Celebrate Recovery I as well has years of sobriety and had three girls I was a sponsor for so I have to say that when it is you in the middle of it is hard an I don't know what to do.