Can't get her off my mind
Many of you have read this earlier in different strings but I can't get her off my mind. I met the most amazing woman 15 years ago but our lives were on different paths. There was a definite chemistry between us. However we never got together. Recently after a painful divorce for me and the death of her husband we began seeing each other. We didn't want to go public with it initially and we still haven't. She told me how she felt and I was to scared to tell her because I was scared of getting hurt again. I always told her I wanted more children. She said she never wanted to get married again. Her plans changed but I held on to mine as an excuse not to tell her hoe I felt. She is 45 I am 40 more children for her would be dangerous to her and the child. We never made a verbal commitment to each other but I thought it was kind of understood. She told me that someone had been interested in her and that she was planning to go out with him. This was two weeks ago.
After losing the battle with my fears I finally told her how I felt. Which is that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. Her friends had already arranged for the new guy to meet her at a party and they hit it off. She has asked me for space to sort things out. I am afraid that I have lost her forever. I hurt her more than I knew. I never went out with anyone else or anything like that but she just felt rejected by me because I didn't tell her or show her how I felt. I have told her in no uncertain terms how I feel and I told her I would give her the space she wanted but I would not give up on us. I hope that I didn't hurt her more than she love me. Iwant her back in my life. Any ideas??