Please someone tell me if I'm just crazy or what is going on.
I've had feelings for a guy for the last 5,6 years, but we have never been in a relationship, and he always wanted to have sex with me. I've been in and out of my little relationships, f*# buddies, friends, etc. but I haven't fallen in love, or had serious feelings for except for one. But it wasn't real love like I've loved the other guy. Anyway throughout all this time I still have seen the first guy on and off, and my issue was that he always seemed to just want to have sex, or hang with me and have sex in the end. Then he would disappear for awhile and resurface. That hurt my feelings, or so I thought. Yesterday I invited him over, and we drank and stuff and he spent the night; and barely touched me at all. I asked him in the morning what was up with that and he said nothing really, he was just tired. Am I crazy to feel horrible and undesirable right now? I know he's doing someone else, but that has never stopped him before. I asked was he serious with the person, and he said no, so why didn't he want to sleep with me? I hadn't seen him in almost a month since we last had sex.
Its like this : I haven't fully gotten over him& want sex. I feel kind of used if he just wants to have sex, and doesn't call so much afterward. I'm feeling ty, undesirable and jealous now that he has rejected me when I was really, REALLY wanting to do stuff with him last night. I don't want to feel used, but I want him to want me at the same time. Is this screwed, because I'm really feeling upset this morning.
I mean do any woman understand how I feel? I'm single, if I meet a guy and have sex with him too quick it may ruin things, but I'm needing it right now. But at the same time part of me wants intimacy, and not just sex. Then I go back and risk feeling hurt with an ex for the sake of being with someone familiar, and he says no!
What the hell is going on?
