It hurts,, but I can't cry
M feeling very very low,, tomorrow is my daughter's 4th death anniversary... I donno whom to express this with... last time I mentioned this to my hubby, he said I'v to think about our other daughter now, and not remember death anniversary. I'v to remember only good things about her... I know its rite,, but what about how bad I feel that she died because of my fault? I feel I killed her. I should have been careful,, I wasn't,, I ignored the fact that she over slept,, I let her,, had I tried to wake her, I'd know she needed a doctor,, I still can't get over the loss, yet I have no shoulder to cry on,, no one wants me to cry over spilt milk,,