I want to live with my mom again but..
Okay, here's the story. I'll try to make it as short and easy as possible.
I'm 15 almost 16, and my mom and dad got divorced when I was seven. I lived with my mom and my brother since then because my dad doesn't have his life together. Well anyway over the past year me and my mom have been fighting a lot and it got to the point where we had a huge blowout fight almost every night. So this was back at around May. Like I said, my dad doesn't have his life together (no house, drinking problem, addictions, money management, no common sense, etc) so he was living with my grandparents. My mom basically kicked me out so I lived with them and my dad over the summer. My dad finally was able to get a house in September, and so I was forced to move in with him. In September I basically pleaded for my mom to please take me back but she refused. I really did change as a person over the summer but she thinks I haven't. So now I'm living in a small apartment with my dad with barely any necessities (no couch, TV, coffee table) yet and it's been two months. I'm so depressed and I miss my mother so much. She doesn't seem to miss me though, and she said she enjoys her life with just her and my brother. I'm just so sad because I just want my mother to see that I have changed and that I do miss her and my brother a lot. We do see each other about once a week, usually going out to dinner or church on Sundays. Everything seems great, and she even said last week "maybe in a few months you can move back". But now it doesn't seem like that. There's just so much chaos and arguing in my family and it's making me so depressed. I just want to go home and have everything go back to normal. Can anyone help me? What are some ways I can try to show my mom that I've changed? What can I do? Please, I'm desperate and about ready to give up on life.
